It is a constant puzzle to me why God doesn't answer some prayers which seem SO worth answering with the answer I am asking for!
For example, an 80year old friend of mine, April, has been having health problems for a couple of years now. Last week, her daughter and I prayed for her leg which has really poor circulation ever since an operation the previous year and is causing her constant pain. However, today she has gone in for an exploratory exam with a possibility of amputation of her foot if things cannot be resolved. I was SO sure God was going to heal her - for her comfort and also to give her a boost in what faith she has. But no - and I am puzzled.
Father - I KNOW You can heal miraculously and I do bow to Your knowing best but I do find myself wondering why. Help me to keep praying and growing in my faith. Give me the wisdom and compassion to keep encouraging April and beinng a good friend and support to her.

It begins

At the age of 51, having been a Chistian for 28 years nonw, I am at a stage of life wondering what God is going to do in me and with me now. If I am honest, I sometimes wonder if I have left it too late to live any sort of bold life for God!

Looking back I remember being a new/young Christian and thinking of what great things I was going to do with and for God. I was enthusiastic annd full of faith. Part of me feels I have let us down - me and God. Yet I know I am somewhat of a perfectionist and know I have to recognise that life up to this point has not been a waste.

Anyway - I have decided to try to keep some record of my thoughts and life as of now and see what emerges. But at this moment, the day calls. Daily life kicks in. There is housework to be done. A friend to visit and things to plant in the garden (tho on a day like this...cloudy and cold, wet and windy, I am not motivated :)